faith

“Now we shall possess a right definition of faith if we call it a firm and certain knowledge of God’s benevolence toward us, founded upon the truth of the freely given promise in Christ, both revealed to our minds and sealed upon our hearts through the Holy Spirit…..If then, we would be assured that God is pleased with and kindly disposed toward us, we must fix our eyes…on Christ…We see that our whole salvation and all its parts are comprehended in Christ.  We should therefore take care not to derive the least portion of it from anywhere else.”

John Calvin

I need faith. We all need faith. Anyone that takes a step back to look at life can see the injustice of the world, the improbability of success, the blessings of God that we do not deserve. I take a step back every new year and spend some time alone evaluating the last year and praying/planning for the next. This year when I spent the holiday with friends at a wonderful mountain cabin in the smokies I had several things on my mind. Among them my wonderful family, the upcoming soccer season, and the uncertainty of life.

snowmen from hiking in the smokies

My family is quite wonderful. A few highlights from the Christmas Holiday included one of my stocking stuffers. On my posted Christmas list on the blog (see the post entitled “how the world turns”) I listed needing a crocheting needle since I’d lost 2 needles in one of my eight moves in the last couple years. My mom sneakily got me a needle (in the perfect color – GREEN) and snuck it in my stocking with everything else. Thats love right there. So small and seemingly insignificant, but sweet love.

A second family highlight is how awesome my brothers are. Not to make a short story long, but I enjoy our adult relationships: where we can fight fair and work through real issues in life, have forgiveness for the mistakes we make, learn, converse and discuss things happening in the world. It was hard, sweet, and refreshing all at the same time.  (I could go on and on about my Dad too, but I’ll save that for another post)

On the upcoming season and the uncertainty of life…

Faith is the gift from God to know that God sent love to us. I can be a doubter. I can doubt this season will go well. I can doubt I’ll find a team, or a job, or a life that I love. Or I can trust that God has good intended for me, not because I love him so well or am so great of a person, but because He loved me while I was a sinner. Its crazy love at that. But I have faith that soccer or no soccer, coaching or not coaching, working or not enjoying my work, living or suffering that Jesus loves me. Not in a far off “I won’t punish you too much” kind of way, but in a “if you’d get past yourself for a minute and saw how much I(God) love you you’d never be the same” kind of love.

This New Year time for me was refreshing to get away, relax, rest, play with friends, sleep, pray, read, make lots of fires… Taking a step back to get a focus on life, to reaffirm the path I’m on to pursue soccer as long as makes sense and then move on to giving the game back to others what has meant so much to me. I am hoping that it will be a long while till that happens, but as we all know…

Life is uncertain. Live it on purpose.

Welcome to Chicago!!

Hey Blogworld!!

What is shakin?! To those of you who are not on twitter or my facebook fan page you may not have heard the news… drumroll please… I was traded to Chicago this last weekend! Unfortunately the paperwork didn’t go though in time for me to be with the team over the weekend, but I have spent the time becoming a little more familiar with my new home.  ++disclaimer No pictures to upload for now, so my excellent word choice will have to do as an adequate description++

I’ve never lived in a city before so this is quite an experience for me. No parking. No massive stores. LONG commute to practice. One grocery… 6 blocks away that you are supposed to walk to. BUT… amazing restaurants, busy night life, lots of eligible bachelors, local coffee shops, parks, active people. Did I mention the food? I am going to have to take up running or something like that to keep me from blowing up (and all you know what a statement that is for a goalkeeper). I am loving it so far, though its barely been a week. I found a church and some new friends my 2nd day in the city. Loving doing cool stuff with them already like ultimate frisbee in Lincoln park (no, I did not play. I’m not allowed). Looking forward to a beach trip this weekend maybe!

The team is amazing. Love my Red Stars. The transition for a player joining a team mid-season can be uncomfortable, but everyone here is amazing. Practices are crisp, to the point, and fun. The team is fun, and are really great people. The coaches are on point. Loving Nate the gk coach, its fun learning new things everyday. But the Red Stars have been a great change for me. As much as Atlanta was close to home and has a lot great things with the girls on the team, the stadium, the owners it was time to move on. Looking forward to this new stage. Keep following me on Twitter @whitgk or my fan page on facebook (Allison L Whitworth). Thanks for the support and I will try to update here soon!

GO RED STARS!!

beach trip!!

Hey gang!!

As some of you may have seen in my twitter, I am at the beach!! Auburn Soccer is in the semi finals of the SEC Tournament in Orange Beach, Alabama. We beat Ol’ Miss on Wednesday at the Orange Beach Soccerplex. It was a great win (current 5-0 win streak I think) and got to avenge the regular season loss earlier this season.

Who do we play in the semifinals? LSU… Auburn’s SEC West rival. This highly anticipated game will kick off at 5:00 pm cst Friday. It should be on game tracker, radio, and possible the SEC online website.

Ok now that all the soccer talk is done… the beach has been awesome!!! Beach walks, playing in the waves, runs, hot tub, coffee, waves, burying people in the sand, good food (that’s free!!) , and naps on the balcony have fit in between my work schedule. The staff condo handles treatment, all meals, laundry, and odd jobs. In addition to these daily tasks we have practices, games, and film duties. Don’t you worry there has been plenty of work going on along with the beach fun. The staff are doing all we can to win tonight’s game and have another 2 days at the beach.

My favorite times this week have been getting up early each day for a run, walk on the beach, and then coffee on the balcony to watch the world wake up. I love vacations!! (even if this is a working one!)

WAR EAGLE! Beat LSU!

this day and that day

There are only two days that matter… this day and that day. I want to live my life in this day in a way that I will not have regrets on that day.

-Martin Luther-

How are you living your life?

I was listening to a speaker today and that was a quote he used in the message. I want to live my life this way. Too often, people (especially young people, myself included) wish away the time and place they are in. They miss the importance of where they are wanting to be another place. The whole grass is greener on the other side philosophy. A friend of mine always says in response to that, “well, you gotta mow the other side too.”

My life is in a slight holding pattern. I am finishing school and training waiting for next season. I do not need to wish away the time here though. As much as I would rather live in a nicer place, see my friends a bit more, spend time with family, or get to play soccer somewhere else, I will be living in the present and investing here. So I am headed to study for my comprehensive exam, work for the soccer team, watch film in the office, train, lift, run, go to class, teach my class, do my group project, and know that someday in the distant future I’ll have time to sleep.

over and out