new year transformations

Time to resolve to do something. Does anyone else love that we create a time of year to decide to do something new/productive/healthy that we have no intention of following through with?

Re-solve – 1. to come to a definite or earnest decision about, determine; 2. to deal with conclusively, settle solve; 3. to convert or transform by any process

Resolve is an awesome word. I especially love that last definition… to convert or transform by any process. I have a lot in my life that needs changing. I believe we need to always grow… have personal growth in many areas of life. The last few weeks have been eye opening to see where I thought I was and where I need to be. It is amazing how easily, subtly pride and selfishness creep into life and put their talons into all the areas I think I am doing ok in. What do I want to transform this year?

My top 3 New Year Transformations

1. Do 5 pull ups – While this may seem like low hanging fruit, I am AWFUL at pull ups. I am fairly strong; I life weights; I’m a goalkeeper and I like climbing. But I was not made for pull ups. Maybe it has something to do with breaking my shoulder in college… that didn’t help I am sure. But I want to work up to being able to do 5 pull ups. It will take me all year, and it will be a transformation.

2. Not run a marathon – I have several friends that enjoy running (being a goalkeeper you KNOW that’s not where I find pleasure). I am not one of them. One good friend finally decided to scratch the marathon off the bucket list. Unfortunately I probably won’t be able to be there to pull her dilapidated body off the group and help recuperate her back to life. I think I will be able to achieve this “transformation.”

3. Pride – No, this transformation is not to become more prideful, but to become less. Now I have tried to “fix” this on my own… totally doesn’t work like that for me. I need some help from God to transform me into the way Jesus was. I mean Jesus defeated this annoying bugger… Smacked it around really. But my goal is to submit my nasty tendency to fight and claw for my own selfish desires that come at the expense of those around me that I love. There may be some progress on this transformation, but its going to be a lifelong battle.

Well, see none of those were completely typical. I didn’t resolved to lose weight, whiten my teeth, or give up smoking. (For the record I do not smoke and think its a nasty, unhealthy, expensive habit that costs our government millions every year in tax money that could be allocated to things such as soccer fields, sports, and education.) There may be more Transformations posted in the next few days. Come back for more! What are you resolving to transform?

faith

“Now we shall possess a right definition of faith if we call it a firm and certain knowledge of God’s benevolence toward us, founded upon the truth of the freely given promise in Christ, both revealed to our minds and sealed upon our hearts through the Holy Spirit…..If then, we would be assured that God is pleased with and kindly disposed toward us, we must fix our eyes…on Christ…We see that our whole salvation and all its parts are comprehended in Christ.  We should therefore take care not to derive the least portion of it from anywhere else.”

John Calvin

I need faith. We all need faith. Anyone that takes a step back to look at life can see the injustice of the world, the improbability of success, the blessings of God that we do not deserve. I take a step back every new year and spend some time alone evaluating the last year and praying/planning for the next. This year when I spent the holiday with friends at a wonderful mountain cabin in the smokies I had several things on my mind. Among them my wonderful family, the upcoming soccer season, and the uncertainty of life.

snowmen from hiking in the smokies

My family is quite wonderful. A few highlights from the Christmas Holiday included one of my stocking stuffers. On my posted Christmas list on the blog (see the post entitled “how the world turns”) I listed needing a crocheting needle since I’d lost 2 needles in one of my eight moves in the last couple years. My mom sneakily got me a needle (in the perfect color – GREEN) and snuck it in my stocking with everything else. Thats love right there. So small and seemingly insignificant, but sweet love.

A second family highlight is how awesome my brothers are. Not to make a short story long, but I enjoy our adult relationships: where we can fight fair and work through real issues in life, have forgiveness for the mistakes we make, learn, converse and discuss things happening in the world. It was hard, sweet, and refreshing all at the same time.  (I could go on and on about my Dad too, but I’ll save that for another post)

On the upcoming season and the uncertainty of life…

Faith is the gift from God to know that God sent love to us. I can be a doubter. I can doubt this season will go well. I can doubt I’ll find a team, or a job, or a life that I love. Or I can trust that God has good intended for me, not because I love him so well or am so great of a person, but because He loved me while I was a sinner. Its crazy love at that. But I have faith that soccer or no soccer, coaching or not coaching, working or not enjoying my work, living or suffering that Jesus loves me. Not in a far off “I won’t punish you too much” kind of way, but in a “if you’d get past yourself for a minute and saw how much I(God) love you you’d never be the same” kind of love.

This New Year time for me was refreshing to get away, relax, rest, play with friends, sleep, pray, read, make lots of fires… Taking a step back to get a focus on life, to reaffirm the path I’m on to pursue soccer as long as makes sense and then move on to giving the game back to others what has meant so much to me. I am hoping that it will be a long while till that happens, but as we all know…

Life is uncertain. Live it on purpose.

2010 in review

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads This blog is doing awesome!.

Crunchy numbers

Featured image

A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 2,900 times in 2010. That’s about 7 full 747s.

 

In 2010, there were 20 new posts, growing the total archive of this blog to 51 posts. There were 10 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 754kb. That’s about a picture per month.

The busiest day of the year was June 9th with 93 views. The most popular post that day was Coming Home!! Back to the ATL with the BEAT!!.

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were twitter.com, womensprosoccer.com, facebook.com, allisonwhitworth.com, and slashingtongue.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for writing on paper, comic about writing, writing a paper, studying humor, and college writing comic.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

1

Coming Home!! Back to the ATL with the BEAT!! October 2009

2

comic – writing a paper September 2009

3

soccer – love my job September 2009

4

dreaming in different time zones September 2009

5

Welcome to Chicago!! June 2010
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